You know, it really sucks when you make a big mistake and it just kind of follows you everywhere and no matter how hard you try to make things better, you’re still labeled as that person who fucked up. I know you’ll never make me feel bad about it but I know how you still feel. It’s written everywhere. No matter how hard I tried, I’m still that person. I not going to spill out my feelings because I swear, every time I did, it got worse. I won’t say what, but it did. I tried, I really did. No one can ever tell me, you never tried, because honestly, for the last 7 months, that’s all I did even if you or no one has seen it. I have. I don’t care what anyone thinks, because I have.
& to be completely honest, I know I’ve been hurting for longer, more, and still am.
It will hurt every day.